Call me weird or whatever, but recently I reread my books @thestarlessuniverse. I know what you’re thinking, “You wrote them? You know what happens??”

Well, sure, but I forgot 🤦🏻‍♀️😅

Truly! It’s been some time since I reflected on these works and what they meant. It was one part self reflection and another part eye opening experience. I learned a lot about myself during my reread—some good some bad, but over all enlightening to enrich the future.

As I rounded out the original series, IN THE WAKE OF STARS was a real stand out. Why? Because I realized, rather quickly, it was a love letter to my life partner, my husband.

In every loving interaction or blow out fight between the various couples, I saw us. Our beliefs about relationships. Our hopes for the future. Our deep respect and admiration for the other. It holds a complicated mix of love and hurt that showcases a healthy relationship. (And before you come for me because of that last sentence, cálmate. I’m a couples therapist. I don’t believe in perfect or a relationship without hurt. See my previous posts/writings.)

Why hadn’t I realized what I had done originally? I mean, the book is dedicated to him, you’d think I’d had a clue!?

All I can think is that while writing it my spirit set free my inner world that I struggled to express to him. Through our ever evolving relationship and our own couples therapy, I might not need the book to do the heavy lifting for me anymore. I can confidently say, I now do it myself. Though it is nice to have a physical reminder of my love.

If you’re curious to see my love come to life, IN THE WAKE OF STARS, and the whole @thestarlessuniverse is available now and free on KU. 💛